Why does the traffic light stay red for just a few minutes?
Why isn’t Target open all night long?
Why do I need a sister?
Given a few quiet moments to think, my 4-year-old son will deliver a regalia of questions. Most often, I can conjure a decent response that will satisfy his inquisitive nature, but the few times I fail to come up with an answer, he exclaims, “You know EVERYTHING Mommy!”
To save face during those blank moments, I distract him and quickly head to Google to find an answer that I think will be sufficient. More recently, my son asked me why I can’t stay home with him every day. Google wasn’t going to help me with this answer.
I debated on how I would approach this question….
I can’t stay home every day because I have a job that needs me too.
I can’t stay home every day because the extra income I bring home is helpful.
I can’t stay home every day because I am lucky enough to have parents and in-laws that make the impossible, possible.
I can’t stay home every day because mommy feels the little time I spend away from our home makes me a better mommy.
As he stood there waiting for my answer, I took a deep breath and began, “Mommy can’t stay home every day because I have a job and…”.
Cut off from delivering my well crafted response, my son interjected, “Woo Hoo! I miss you when you are at work but it’s more fun when you are not here. Poppy and Nonno watch golf and soccer and I can eat candy”.
To say I was devastated would be a understatement. In those few moments that I tried to develop a responsible and appropriate response that he could digest and not be forever damaged by, he was thinking of the gummy bears and Swedish fish and Hersey Kisses I keep in the snack shelf which apparently he has full access to when his grandfathers are occupied.
One day, my son will realize I do not know everything. Until then, I will try to cope my self-imposed mommy guilt and smile at all of the special moments I do get to share with my very special smart 4-year-old son.